Growing
up in Romania, music and art were solid foundations of my cultural
upbringing and my paintings draw from this strong Eastern European
influence.
As a
child, I was very gifted in music so my parents enrolled me in the
music conservatory. It was at the age of 7 that my career was chosen
for me. Studying music in a Communist country was a very rigid and
controlling experience. For most of my life this was the path I
took: performing concerts and teaching music. However, as I grew
older, I came to realize that my concept of a real artist is freedom
- and music did not represent that to me.
One day I
noticed my tulip garden and suddenly had the urge to paint it. I had
never painted before but I was drawn to the colors and forms and I
simply had to try. As I continued experimenting with color and form,
my desire to paint became so strong that I ultimately gave up
teaching and performing music to follow my heart. With painting, I
have chosen my own path and in doing so, I choose the path of
freedom.
I work
from an authenticity derived from my native Romania combined with my
experience as a classically trained musician. This experience is
channeled into the moment and onto the canvas where space, color and
feelings have no boundaries. As a musician and painter I express
with color what I hear in my heart. By manipulating formal devices
such as thick and thin paint, line and edge, distortion and rhythmic
patterns, I create a feeling that allows color to define form.
My concern
is not the precision of the subject I see - it is painting the
feeling of what I see. The essence of each painting is the
connection between the subject matter and me. When I step inside the
space I am creating on canvas, I want the viewer to go there with me
- to experience the openness of the moment.
Expressing
the truth of the present moment is what drives me to paint. The past
leads each one of us to the present moment, and yet once we arrive
at the present moment, the past falls away and we are left with only
the positive now. As I paint, the colors, shapes and forms evolving
on the canvas allow me to reach back towards my experiences as a
child traveling from behind the Iron Curtain, to New York, and then
eventually on to California. Digging deep into a vast pool of
feelings I reach out and express on canvas the paradox between
reality and dream, embracing the ethereal and the mystery of the
unknown.
To this
expression, I continuously dedicate my time as an artist. Painting
offers a passion to heal the inner soul and an even greater
enthusiasm to connect with my true self.